Solace in Solitude

A bit alone, aware and awake,
with open eyes and constant gaze,
to watch in silence near and far,

A gentle breeze grazes my cheek,
wind plays with my hair,
and I walk, looking on from afar !



People passes, so does the scenery,
so different, random and disorderly,
the crowd and the place, with so noise,
with no rhythm or regularity.
crossing by....it's so loud,
their laughter, cry and anger,
their love, envy and hatred,
unruly, pulling and pushing away !!

Joining them yet avoiding,
being there but not so....
simply watching, silently,
not with comments or opinion,
detached, within my own world,
in those serene lands,
in my tranquil life....
to find harmony with my soul.

To analyze, to decide,
the world not to blame,
nor temporary change in mood,
not some disorder of mind,
or  influence of words,
governing changes in my heart !!

Attached yet so unattached,
accepted but also endured,
this journey of my path,
build with my choices.....
responsibility of my selection,
opinions as I perceive,
and receiving the outcome,
smiling, with open arms...

So, don't resent,
or get irritated of my actions....
I might be a loner,
sometimes avoids being in group...
not responding to your feelings,
or showing the same emotions,
as I am like this.

Watching from afar,
to the vastness above and beyond,
the clouds in the limitless sky,
with sparkle in my eyes,
excited, fickle minded and childish...
moody and being selfish,
yet sometimes brooding,
serious with hing of melancholy,
sighing, deep in thought.....

I find Solace in Solitude.

Everyone is a Hero here...

Hello friends, 

Looks like I couldn't  frequently update my blog these days,  
Getting little busy after joining for my post graduation degree and not much new ideas come too..
there are a lot going on, different hobbies to take care of in free time...

Just thinking of some things, people, world, Reality in different perspective....so, penning out these things :)


Everyone is a Hero here,
each unique, a reality,
a past and a present,
a future to look forward to....
A story to tell,
path to follow,
with feelings, emotions,
desires and aspirations !!


different perspective,
different circumstance,
hardships and troubles,
frustrations and disappointment...
but with help and support,
or courage to overcome...the obstacles !!

They are no different,
like you or me,
with hopes and some wishes,
dreams to fulfil,
with own outlook and principle,
living for their reasons,
to influence or to follow,
or creating one's own space.

To be a nobody,
being hidden in a crowd
to disappear from everything,
concealed within their own wall,
or be a somebody,
adored and respected,
setting a stage,
creating a change !


To be happy, joycious...
or being hurt in pain,
being special yet so normal,
with the same emotions....
compassionate, thoughtful,
having all the virtue,
or the negativity coming,
in parts of heart with secret cravings !!

Its all the same,
yet feels so different,
each with a unique character
something special inside....
a life to live for,
as a protagonist,
with it's own viewpoint,
with it's own reality.

Looking out towards the world....
or opening up to the vast universe,
a small drop in the ocean,
a part of the wave,
with actions and their reactions,
from zero to infinity...
from nobody to everybody,

Yes........everyone is a Hero here !! :)

All or nothing

All or nothing,

I am on a mood swing,

nervous or excited........

expanding my thought's wings,

to do it all,

experiencing everything.....

or remain lazy,

and do nothing !

I was happy,

living in my world,

naive and unsure of things,

to leave or to hold.....

to believe in faith,

in my optimistic way....

reminisce of my past,

hope for the future,

and the present me......

running all the way !!

time flows as moments passes,

never to return back,

hurdles too as I stumble,

brooding for life that I lack ....

love and hatred,

envy or jealous,

desires not being fulfilled....

dreams and wishes,

thoughts or perception,

for things that I really need.

attachment and it's pain,

to detach from the feeling,

all that couldn't happen,

with impulses to do nothing....

greed not to be satisfied,

a thirst that can't be quenched,

but a minimum experience,

the feelings that I want......

of the reality I have,

and make the life worth living !!

All or nothing,

it don't work....

life needs sacrifices,

not everyone have all luck,

or the circumstances favorable....

all the thing that I said,

Nothing is same for all !!  :)

Just an observer

Hello friends, it's been a long time. I had been busy lately and also my other interests come in the way too.
So, I couldn't write any blogs lately,

I have recently joined PG course in Microbiology in theMedical college where I had done my UG, so all the paper works, counselling, resignation from my previous post of being a Medical officer in a Govt. Hospital, took a lot of time.

So, after all these hectic days, freeing my mind to think and write something was little difficult too. Anyway, let me start with a simple one today :)




I am a observer,
Just an observer after all....


Silent, transparent, standing,
from the world afar,
the moving universe,
the travelling time,
like a wind passing by,
or like a river flow,
and I being stranded.....
on the shore !!



They come and go,
some moments to spare,
somethings to share,
then moving away....
searching for their ways !

We laughed and talked,
and the silence followed,
being in touch as we say,
with hopes of coming days....
but, our lives on separate bays !

Days passed as new one came,
forgetting the past,eyes for the future,
new things to be remembered,
just the thoughts in our heart,
left behind on the memory lane !!

An observer that I became,
not to experience,
but to visualize,
from afar emotionless,
in those crowded ones !!


My feelings...my reality,
all within....deep inside,
not to speak, nor share,
not to be involved nor care,
just passing the moments I have.

Everything is on the surface,
like the sand on the seashore,
that the waves washing away...
leaving behind an empty floor,
creating new paths and write again !!!

The unease

The unease... a panic,
a turmoil within,
I am confused, I feared !

Questions coming in,
unsure of my life,
my presence...existence itself.

I asked myself,
reasons, answers,
doubts that encircles.

To know the unknown,
seek the forbidden,
just to explore the infinite.

I am enclosed,
covered by my rules,
ideologies and principles.

But the impulse,
or my inner instincts,
to listen...or to ignore?

family, friends society,
customs and traditions,
to respect and to follow.

But to want change,
inhale some fresh air,
to feel a new breeze.......

To know more,
to understand more,
receive what the world could give.

Am I selfish or being naive,
the struggles and uncertainties,
running away from foundation.

I do seek harmony,
to have a balance,
in every phase of my life....

unsure,
still with hope,
a faith in unknown.

honest with self...
carry with my feelings,
in light and darkness,
living without regrets !

To be optimistic..as I search,
what new treasure being hidden,
waiting in life...to be unfold.

Should I remain ignorant,
or thrive to know more,
to remain happy with myself,
residing in my small world,
or bring this unease inside,
as I see more.....beyond the horizon.

May be it vanish,
or grow out to something more,
then.....will there be someone,
to calm this troubled mind,
to bring comfort and ease...
in heart and soul !! 

Another world...another time.

Another world, 
another time,
another place,
another me.......

wake up in a dream,
or another reality,
me, people, nature,
embracing them all together.....

innocence, understanding, 
love and care,
joy and the happiness,
pain with overflowing tears.....

the stages of life,
living it all...
feelings, emotions,
to savor the best of life.

In situations, circumstances,
with characters and personalities, 
my wishes and hopes,
and struggles in reality.....

the moving clouds,
and the lush greenery,
along with valley and forests,
also the vast expanses of sea....

animals in the nature
the bird flying in sky,
or the small creatures,
present on the ground,

the flower beds,
the river and the lakes,
throwing the pebbles,
or searching of sea shells.

childhood memories,
hideouts in abandoned lots,
adventures,action imitations,
excitement of making new friends

with family and friends,
picnic and get together,
festivals or camping out,
or having fun together,

the cute things,
and the sweet ones,
the beautiful beings,
within this fantasy world of mine...

Be it rain, heat or snow,
I move with the flow...
to live in present,
cherishing the moments,
not making any mistakes,
or have guilt and regrets....

A reality far from real,
yearning with a warm heart,
with music and song from soul,
me, in this serene landscape....

peace and satisfaction,
with me and friends,
passion of young love,
living in harmony......

from nothing to everything,
observing, experiencing, understanding,
nothing to rush, taking my time,
without stress or worries,
watching them all,
world revolving around me,
a different life,
a different reality,

Another world.....another time !!

The bonds

It’s been a while,

I was beginning to forget..

the time spent, moment’s shared,

I was young, so naive,

innocent thoughts with pure heart,

living for present, no worries ever,

But then I grew,

compete and struggles,

created goal to be achieved,

my dream and desires taken over,

as I went on my path..

I forgot the past, places changed,

new acquaintances, new people,

only together for common interests,

we met and talk but rarely so,

the mind was not there for long,

giving excuses for avoidance,

we parted away to seek the heart

gone the friends, being at home,

waited alone as I sat,

as I recalled the days of past.

The carefree days, devoid of worries

going with the innate desires,

book to read, games to play,

some adventures within ourselves,

I remembered them all,

As I pondered,

The bonds that I shared….

True bonds, difficult to form,

the one that lasts lifelong,

someone to cheer you up,

encourage you in the life,

to scold you for your faults,

fights for petty reasons,

yet accepts you as you are,

to assure at time of trouble,

join in the happy times.

to make you laugh,

wash away the tears,

small advice, or just gestures,

loosen you a bit, to be at ease,

to take the journey together,

or just be in touch....

All of it for that bond,

without hidden motives,

any sympathy or pity,

bond engraved….on pure heart.

it's not too far, time will come,

to be with near and dear,

enjoy company and spend good times,

as I walk in this path of life,

those days were gone,

but I am still young,

till then………I am waiting all alone. 

Stories..

Hello friend, 
Have been a little down these days, and using my free time to watch some Anime manga series and reading other stories.
So, rather than being writing, I have been using my time to enjoy other's. It's fun actually, the way we take time to see stories around the world, their way of thinking, culture, imagination. So, you can say, I am out of ideas these days. :)

Anyway, there are things which you can't express until one didn't experience it ....so, trying to fill that quota now. A small one for today...

I have been watching,
still landscapes, open spaces,
the flowing river, standing trees,
and the people from various places...

Stories they share,
or the bond in between,
working for their living,
joy or the sorrow within.

I felt their feelings,
live the moments too...
emotions that they conveyed,
influenced in my thoughts too...

I heard their voices,
different in their ways,
but the basic being similar,
each have the same say.

I smiled in their pleasure,
saddened by their despair,
immersed in world of illusion,
as the story unfolds....

Thus, I sign off,
back to watching, be it so,
stories are being incomplete,
still more to go !! 

Just me...as it is

Hello friends....It's been a while, that I have written some blogs here. Had my entrance exam going on and preparation was taking it's toll...and these competitive environment just take away the pleasure of writing for expression of my thought...to expand my imagination in writing space !! 

Still....just a new one , a bit of feeling coming out....here it goes,


I tried to be happy and lively,
to be sad and gloomy too..
be with friends and share,
or just be reserved within.

to look around and observe,
see what the world had got,
watch as I move forward,
feeling the life as I go.

to be unsure,
dream for my future..
or looking towards my past,
for some memory to solace.

Did I brood too much ?
or wish the unreachable,
to avoid the responsibilities,
and be living in my dream world !!

Being influenced by stories,
or make some in my imagination,
a delusion to begin with...
disappointment as a wholesome.

I haven't asked much,
but refused to stand back,
to try as much I do,
and seek for what I desire.

Yes...confused I am,
so are my aspirations,
dreams to be fulfilled,
life to care for......

are these detachments,
or envious of not having,
bit of philosophy and spirituality too.. 
all being a part of me.

I don't know where I belong,
I don't want much to it either,
just some peace and happiness,
friends and family to be with...
.
...
..... 
or just me as it is !!

Thoda ruk jaun

Thoda ruk jaun, 
thoda thehar jaun,
abhi bahut kaam baki hai,
na dekhu idhar,
na dekhu udhar,
meri to rah aage hai !

chahte to bahut hai,
aur doston ka saath,
kuch masti, kuch shauk,
jeene the woh pal bhi,

samaye ka mahatva,
lakshya ki chinta,
hua to mein bhi,
in karya mein magan !!

haan maine bhi dekhe swapan,
jisme bhavisya ki thi jhalak,
aur chalta chala mein yunhi,
apni inhi raho mein....
kebal ek hi tha chintan,
pana tha us laksya ko,
aur paya bhi usko aise,
khusi payi kuch pal ki....

par chalte chalte ab,
hua bahut dur mein,
woh lamhe jeene the jo,
bhul gaya mein usse,
mauke bhi aaye,
kuch prayas hamare bhi,
ichhayen jo thi bhitar,
par sahas na kar saka !!

Thoda ruk jata,
thoda thehar jata,
uss mausam ko bhi jee leta,
daudta hi raha,
chalta hi raha,
aur samaya yun beet gaya. 

Jo gaya so gaya,
bas kuch yadein baki hai,
tuti hui, sehmi hui,
kuch aas baki hai....
aage aa chuka hun mein,
woh pal na lautenge,
bas jo ab hai mera.....
Ussi mein jeena hai, 
haste hue chalte rehna hai. :)

A new route

A new route, 
on the road,
one side river,
other side rock....
On a cloudy day,
soft stray drizzle....
with cold weather,
in a shadowing sun.

Inspired I drive by,
tickle that I felt,
of strong winds from river,
or swaying shrubs on the rock!

I watched with awe,
the diving birds...
vanishing briefly and rising,
taking their prize away.
The rustling of branches,
with the falling leaves,
short appearances of wild beings....
squirrel, lizards and mongoose. 

The rock side on my left,
full of nature beauty,
large blocks hanging down,
with vines and  greenery.
some were flat...
others are too high,
climbing and adventure,
and places to relax too !!

Moving on I found,
few thatched huts,
an old man on roadside,
selling the morning catch.
surrounded by kids,
he gazed with hopeful eyes...
for prospective customers,
for fresh fishes to buy. 

hovering dragonflies,
crossing of butterflies
from both sides,
coming near within my hold,
racing along with me,
tried to catch but being alert,
they got flickering away....to their world.

serpentine roads,
with turns and turns,
tree plantation both side,
bamboo, cashew or jungle trees.
new leaves from bamboo shoot,
or the dense cover of cashew trees.....
sweet aroma of wild flowers,
beautiful colors for visual treats!!

I watched them, 
slowed down to see more,
rocks, river as nature treasure
away from city shores!!

If I was true

If I was true,
honest to my heart,
seeking goodness of others,
and some comfort to self,
being happy and safe.....
If I was true,
fulfill the duties of life,
restrain over the impulses,
patience and self-control,
being responsible to family....
If I was true,
avoiding the bad habits,
being simple and quiet,
not be wasteful or lavish,
saving more than I spend....

If all this being true,
for security of my dreams,
of future, distant it may seems...
Then why I do worry,
asking myself to hurry,
moments that passes....
the chance that I missed !

Is it envy, or despair,
of a life that I care.......
Is it guilt of evil thoughts,
or the grief of time that lost.

If I was true, 
then why I want change,
to keep up the hope,
bringing the happy days.......
a need to introspect,
taking up my choices,
to identity my flaws,
working on my weaknesses !

If I was true,
I will get what I want,
but there are doubts...
when I write these lines wishing,
.
..
...

If only, I was true !!

Desh ke dushman

Sab dekhte hai hum,

par kuch bol nahi sakte,

Sab jante hai hum,

par kuch kar nahi sakte......

Are jinki haath mein hai dor,

jab woh hi usse katate phire,

tab kis ummed mein rahe....

kaun desh ko bacha sake??

Yahan har gora hai kala,

har sachai hai jhoothi,

jisne jalayi hai diye ko,

wahi bujha jata hai usko!!

Asha aur nirasha ab,

iss desh ka pehlu ho chuka ....

desh pe marne bale hue kam,

bas desh lutne balon ka hua bhala.

satta aur dhan ki bhook hai aisi,

dushman  hi ab dost bana,

unko phoolon ki malayen mili,

desh ko kanton ka haar mila.......

Woh na sune to na sahi,

par hum to sab dekhte hai,

phir kyun kuch pal ke labh mein,

Desh kedushman bante hai !!