Sunday, December 26, 2010

the year end..


the year....at its end,
time leaving , not to be back,
was it memories..good or bad,
a new resolutions to look ahead.

so, is this a celebration,

or there's party to have some,

just to enjoy the moments,

jubilant is the nation.

what about us..we people,

everyone with there life to be lived,
fun to have, dreams to achieve,

set some goals to perceive.


but still its a day,few to pass,
and there it is opening eyes,

new dawn of a new year....
just to bring in new things from it's box.


the year will go, as the new comes,
we stand there, with ourselves,

passing by, will be our world,

along with we will decide.


we could do anything,

party, sleep, or hang-out,

resolution to make or break,

and there are we all looking forward....

for a new year to come...new hopes, new aspirations, to come!!

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Patterns for you


The shapes and the sizes,
also colors so different,
and they are all being present...
if we just look around!!

I see faces, I see life,
or just a simple sign,
I see structures, I see vibe,
and also the mature of mine.

Its on the walls, it's on the sky,
or you could observe it in daily life,
It's in your dream, it's in your aim,
or it's the destiny, for which you thrive.

Isn't it apparent, we so blind,
or may be the time haven't arrive,
but the patterns still emerging,
keeping them all in your sight.

You may say it's all fiction,
or just a figment of imaginative mind,
but it's not me, it's not about you,
It's just the pattern of our view.

Patterns it is, we just need to look,
and search for some of unanswered thoughts,
you may not find, it's so abstract,
but still there is always a pattern for you!!


Saturday, December 11, 2010

patriots...come on!


Patriots, bring all..
competition calling, your people asking,
what if fallen behind,
come on and lead us in front.

we know money matters,
also a easy life we ask for,
but still there should be a cause,
one should stand for!!

yes, enjoy your part,
also run for your desire,
only making some changes,
taking en route to your country.

globalization, a world, it should be,
but forced interests are on us,
what way, it will take,
up or down is all we go!!

patriots, that's what all I ask for,
because, in your heart, you know..
this is what you ever wanted to be
just a little blurred it's becoming !!

patriotism say a lot about country's interest,
all we talk but little we do,
why should others do, it's your home too,
don't you know what we are going through?

past can't be changed but future so alive,
just the present is rotting away,
holding it is all we doing..
so, just don't sit back and watch,
come out, it's what a patriot in you wants!!

Monday, December 6, 2010

Consequence...a story


its wet and cold,
as these irregular projections hits me...
and there I was fallen,
tired and exhausted.

I couldn't walk, not anymore,
fought so much, weak I become,
sensation lost..feeling so numb,
waiting for someone, a hand to hold.

It was never like this,
it never meant to be,
there were riches, fame,
that's all surrounding me.

every thing good belongs to me,
exotic, rare collection being,
dreams had no place..no time to think,
ohh...those times, are all I have seen.

its full moon now, wind so harsh,
have I being ignorant of this fact,
tides come and go...sound so more..
difficult to concentrate or hear my thoughts.

everything was easy then...not so now,
there new emotions and grief coming how?
introspective, or just memories,
its only the results of the seeds I sow.

I had my chance, but so ignorant,
had my pride or ego making me truant?
now, being defeated, waiting to die,
alone, battered, tired fallen on this island.

I should have stopped...the path I had taken,
but near ones too busy, blinded by status,
I would have changed but no time to repent,
still being enlightened after all this.

My story, my thoughts will go with me,
but the reality will remain so be,
and I will see, wish to god,
No other one would face the consequence like me...

Sunday, November 28, 2010

I, me and mine...


walking on the road,
alone, in the evening,
bundling out of some thoughts....
touching my mind like a breeze.

just to make rhyme,
or a few clever words,
I tried to assemble,
like joining of many strings.

the things I had ever spoken,
or used it on whole personality,
how much selfish it being wanting...
I, me and mine??

It's what I thought every day,
the wishes and desire built in,
I deserve for more...or more I want,
looking up around the lavish life.

envy, jealousy or pure greed,
but it could be innocent curiosity,
still it all come back to me,
as I walk on the road, thinking.

may be its not only me,
it's the introspection of many,
such is the awareness in inequality,
that not one is left untouched within.

abstract thoughts, it may be,
or it's just my selfishness,
what wrong did I make thinking....
I, me and mine??




Saturday, November 27, 2010

the way ahead


the way ahead,
and I walk,
steps by steps,
strides by strides,
and I move on..

the stones do come,
so are the thorns,
but I had the flowers,
picked from the path,
and I hang on..

I listened the says,
I saw the world,
the thought I had,
woven around in my mind,
and I gain on...

sometimes I faltered,
patience got tested,
the blessings and wishes besides me,
such was the goodwill it brought,
and I achieves on....

yes...I looked back for a while,
counting expectations and accomplishments,
but the memories so sweet,
the attachments I made,
and I cherished on....



Saturday, November 20, 2010

flow of music...


flow of music...
going through my mind,
evoking countless emotions..
some new, some old.

the pitch of the melody,
or the rhythm with it,
the sound so different,
hearing, as I sway.

countless feelings it stored,
countless are formed new,
but still its there,
waiting for me to appreciate it!

its the flow that works,
as I close my eyes,
something changes in mind,
the hidden desires or thoughts being.

each one is different,
as I craved for more,
satisfy, I will not become,
till the great minds are at work.

flow of music...
that touches your heart, your soul,
and you admire the genius,
that such things exist in our world...

......just enjoy the music..whatever you like.... :) :)

Monday, November 1, 2010

missing myself...


missing myself...
the worry, the stress,
the desires, the wishes,
or just being living...

missing myself...
watching movies or t.v,
browsing net or be lazy,
even just walking...watching others.

missing myself..
brooding for things I don't have,
wanting to have it all,
or just doing some window-shopping.

missing myself...
watching kids play at school,
the guys hanging out,
or just bunking, having time-out.

missing myself,
when I think, I feel,
whether do improve my skill...
or just being idle ...working out this for a good read....[:)]

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

I am

not like a dream,
nor in the reality,
I am what I am,

not like a flower,
nor the hard stone,
I being what I had been.


yes, you want different,
or you have some choice,
but I can give only me...
you can have sweets,
or some spicy bites,
but these flavor's aren't your life!

can't be the rain,
to sprinkle your face,
but be the river to be beside you...
can't be the words,
that charm your heart,
but be the whisper...to guide your path.

not like the winds,
nor like the breeze,
I am what my mind meant to be.
not like some stories,
nor like your movies,
I am what a guy should be.....[:)]



Friday, October 15, 2010

It's a promise...

Hey friends...another try of something different ,

It's a promise...It will be,
but not a believe meant to be,
I know its difficult but true...
forget nor forgiving are you?

but still I say what I do,
its a mistake I made too,
but now things changed...
I had repent the past!!

It was a path not to be taken,
realization eluded me,
but I failed, I faltered....
will you not support me?

True that I was on fault,
true I don't deserve you,
still it was our love..pure,
will you get detached from it?

Not your memory, nor life,
a punishment you shouldn't like,
so why so away..so refrain.....
can't I deserve another chance?

yes the pain is mutual,
the hatred is not desirable,
yet time will heal..will change us...
just come once.

explaining will not do,
trust once gone can't be brought ,
but still I have faith....
a new beginning is what I hope for.

It's a promise...and it will be!!


Sunday, October 3, 2010

Its not about Ayodhya !!

Well...recently the Allahbad High court decision about the Ayodhya verdict had brought wide and varied reaction all around the country..some had used it for petty dirty politics to get hold of there vote bank..some just wanted to show off..how good they were by condemning or praising it..and a lot more. Still most of them see what I call a very Narrower picture of such a verdict.

Lets take it as this..We know the History..NOT PROOF...but faith that Lord Ram was born there as in Ramayana..and there is PROOF that there was a old temple beneath Babri Masjid and PROOF that Babar did destroyed a lot of temples and built Mosque on it.So, From the start the Hindus felt being the victim and there were tensions which led to declaration of the site as disputed by the British. After Independence, when the Hindu population was more, this was gone for court settlement and the media and government took a lot time for its verdict as we have this tendency of Minority appeasement....This was a misconception which still remains here as Muslims are always thought to be the Victim..as propagated by their religious preachers, by the Government for vote bank politics. So, it indirectly fueled the Hindu believers, as the government never took there side even if they were the majority..leading to 1992 incidence by Kar sevaks, Babri Masjid demolition..No other way they thought the Ram Mandir could be built on the sacred site as the administration were blind for votes.
Then there were Godhra riots sparked due to burning of Kar sevaks in the train, Mumbai bomb blasts, Increase in terrorism just by showing demolition of Babri Masjid..demolition of many thousand of temples in Pakistan and Bangladesh.. No one cared to take a look at the History!!

Now coming to broader part...Hinduism was once the most prominent religion of the world..from it...as a influence, Buddhism, Jainism, Sikhism, and all the religion have somewhere or less got some influence from Hinduism..you just can't deny that but, its influence decreased, once covering all of southeast Asia, it is now restricted India and Nepal..While, Islam and Christian flourished...do you know why, they expanded, converted both by hook or crook...Once True India, from Afghanistan to Thailand and more being only Hindu region, it's now covered by Islam and Christians, and Now even Hindus would fear to say there country was predominantly Hindu for the fear of being Branded as communal..Other religion don't understand or they don't want to..why should they, everyone need there profit..Why else after the verdict would anyone say Muslims are CHEATED by having 1/3RD of a sacred place of Hindus and most of Indians supported it,,as they think themselves secular..ITS NOT SECULARISM, its foolishness. Hindus are always tolerant and there religion accept all religion but that doesn't mean other religion try to sabotaged the oldest and most true heritage of such a great country...they just don't understand...its the religion the heritage that there forefathers conserved..What will I say if people are so obsessed with secularism..that the many firm Hindu believer say Pseudo-secularism. On such avoidance and ignorance of people, Religious fanaticism will only grow..and I now understand why..

There are a lot of incidence where a place being sacred to Hindus have a temple along with a Mosque built there...and someone just suggested to do the same in Ayodhya just because there was a mosque built by a cruel leader some 400 yr ago destroying something that was many thousand year old...holding faith of many millions..Let me ask them to give a single example of building a Temple, in Muslim dominated region anywhere in the world along with a Mosque,...answer would be a strict NO and lot of Angry calls..Fatwa and all. Why they want only Hindu be secular, why can't they be the same...But our people, the Hindu majority, the government is blind...I have nothing against the Muslim, what I worry is the survival of Hinduism, If its own people are not supporting it.

Muslims were not the victim here...THEY NEVER WERE..... Ayodhya is not about Lord Ram's temple...its just a symbolism..a sign to show, we need to protect what we are...what we should be. Let all the people, from any religion, being a Indian, protect the very Indianness of you...as all other religion are foreign, all other culture are foreign...What yours is always be yours!!!.....
STOP PRETENDING TO BE SECULAR.......BE SECULAR!!..EQUAL RIGHTS TO ALL RELIGION..OTHERS ARE GETTING IT..LET HINDUISM ALSO HAVE THERE SHARE!!
IT'S NOT ABOUT AYODHYA

Saturday, October 2, 2010

trip to Mumbai...

Hello friends,

I have been gone for a trip to Mumbai for vacation this time..and its what my experience from it..
I have a friend there, working in some software company..working is just what most Mumbaikars are, and it was what I saw there.

Mumbai is divided in many parts..New Mumbai, the suburbs...true there are a lot of big buildings, mall as I had expected but most of it region are like general cities..there is a gap of the common men and the elites...but there are places where this difference doesn't seems to matter!!..Mumbai is really a mixture of all the societies , from different class, from different region and that's what it stands for..the diversity!!...I could see the gujrati, marwari, bihari, south indian..punjabis, lot of foreigners..and it was so common that I didn't got surprised.

So, where was I....my journey ...I prefered the Train journey and it was tiring too. but I loved as the new places come and goes...Stations and Vendors. Reached there in early morning...my friend was waiting there for me..at the station Dadar. we took a local Train to our station Goregaon...Its what so Good about the Transport system..you will get any medium, train, auto, taxi...to anywhere you want..and the cheap alternative was local trains...you have to purchase coupons as a ticket. As I said, we went to our station and then to my friends house through an auto, It was in the suburbs..very much like my place. It was Sunday morning and I didn't have sleep..We met his roommates, all his seniors and had some chat.

My friend and I decided to have a little journey to Gateway to India, after spending some time there we went to Nariman point...we had some time to rest and watch the beauties and the places around...from there we went to visit the Bandra - Worli sea link. Then watched some of the Bollywood star's house..a lot of crowd standing there...even the Auto driver was telling, why the people are mad at watching the star's house even if they know that No was there then...he he
We went to visit the famous Juhu beach, rested there, had Pao bhaji and Kala khatta..its speciality and then some time walking barefoot on the wet sand..then we had our dinner and back to room. Next day was my friend Rupak's office, so I had to wait at home..in evening we went to visit Oberai mall and had some shopping there..had some fun in game centre and ate doughnuts..

as Monday wasn't much fun, Rupak decided to take 2 day break and we planned to see the Elephanta caves and some shopping for my family. Next day, as we decided..we went to Gateway of India...took a ferry and went to visit the Elephanta caves..1hr route to an islands...It was 7.00 pm when we returned...we straight head for the shopping for family. It was 11.00pm when we returned in the room...My return ticket was of next day 21.00pm night so, had a whole day for us. We went to SidhiVinayak for there blessings...we spent some time there returned to the Malls..watched one 3D movie and played some games. Had our lunch there and returned to the room.

It was time for my packing, had my dinner, said goodbye to his roommates..and head straight to the stations...Rupak came with me as I didn't know the new station..Lokmanyatilak terminal..after we reached the station..I asked him to return as was getting late..11.30pm and he had to go to office too, and I went to my berth..had my bag place and watched out of the window.

Good bye Mumbai, I thought...surely I know why people want to come to Mumbai...the place had everything the people want yet a lot was happening beneath the veil of this glamorous world, something only be known if you live their. Its just like ordinary life..anywhere in our country..but what it does have is its own charm. I had memories now..of the crowded local trains..the sea and the buildings..the people, the malls, everyone busy in there own world. Good, I was just a visitor there....who knows what lies else there..the thing I didn't discovered in my 4 day stay!!

Thursday, September 23, 2010

The wait

just a new venture friend...hope its good,


sitting besides the old tree,
standing out on rainy days,
walking on the lonely lane,
speaking those sames words..
hadn't I waited enough??.

I have been there,
things that never be forgotten,
nor I was afraid,
to recall them over again,
hadn't you forgiven??

why so far, so silent,
only those shadows remain,
those cry of the night,
those brood of the day,
hadn't I suffered enough??

Yes I am getting old,
only the figments of memories,
but still you are there deep within,
the love, the caring that we shared,
hadn't the separation so cruel??

Its been late, the darkness arrives,
wait of another day...a day without you,
you are unhappy, angry on me..still you loved me,
leaving me all alone in the world...you went to the god,
a long wait, but we will meet...forever and ever...

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

humiliation of Sushil kumar

Just watching the News yesterday. Yes, I do watch news some days in hope of getting something new information. But the stories are as usual...Kashmir burns as people dies..Jatt wanted there reservation...students getting involved in a fight for college elections , then there is cricket or bollywood..

Looks like our media is crazy about politics, and cricket and then bollywood. Politics has just captured the Nations imagination. Then there was news of arrival of Sushil kumar after winning the world championship in wrestling and being met by huge celebration by rejuvenated fans, proud family members and coach. Better ..no politics here...but my happiness was short lived as another controversy struck in!!...Mr. M S Gill sir, the Sports Minister of our country!! and the photo shoot
controversy.

Yes, Mr. Gill wanted all the credit for himself as he literally shoo away the Coach and his family members to have a single photo with the World champion!!...Someone who doesn't even care to receive Sushil kumar at airport or don't know what he did for him before he won Olympic bronze medal!!...And shooing away his coach and family the main contributor of Sushil kumar's success.
It was a great humiliation for both the coach and the player but who cares!!...are we enough patriotic to care???

Why should he care, he is a Politician, the Babu..who are these small villagers and this small coach to stand with him!!...Even if he got Dronacharya award..he is far below him!!
This is the Basic mentality of our Babus and politicians!!..even the one in the Office doesn't care about whats going on under him!...I bet he doesn't even know half the sports person that a common Indian knows!!...Still these guys want there pay hike as they are supreme, Want to get all the credit for any individual Success!!

My basic question remains-----are such guys eligible to run such a responsible post???

Friday, September 10, 2010

After exams

Hello friends, its been a long time since I had posted something...I just had my exams going on so could give time to the blog...but now I am free and relaxed so, why not write the feel of students after exam?

wanna dance, wanna sing,
travel places or watch movies..
hangout with friends,
talk with girlfriend/boyfriend?

well, the time I have,
the moments to spend!!
watch some TV, play games,
Its my day, the night being mine!!

No sleepless nights,
no tired days,
no strings being tied,
pulling from the behind!!

So, I am confused,
I am bored...
a lot to do..how to start?
or just sleep all the time!!

now missing the college,
all the friends and the fun,
they are away to their homes,
and I don't know what to do!!

so the cycle will repeat,
in college..miss the home
and in home...miss my college,
really its true...isn't it???

well...its one of the views...I bet their are a lot more depending on where your friends are and your plans for the holidays!!...

Friday, July 16, 2010

Ah! the rains...

Ah! the rains,
the dreams, the pains,
the wish to be fulfilled,
the wait but in vain.

Ah! the rain,
the desire the strains,
the anger of being concealed,
the struggle of being sane.

Ah! the rains,
the beauty, the bane,
the tryst or being jovial,
searching happiness, where it lain.

Ah! the rains,
journey in the wains,
appreciation of being different,
making the heart being fain.

yes! the rains,
the dream, the pain,
the wait, the struggle,
happiness of the main!!

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Roomies....


I was just watching the channel V and its new serials Roomies promo, where a gal writing blog about her roommates and friends...so I thought why not write one of mine...
not that I have some extra-ordinary friends but yet they are different in some way!!...we are a bunch of average guys being friend, we talk, play , study and do what you usually see in boys hostel but still each one of my roommates and friends are unique in some way.
First is Himanshu...or papu as his pet name, "papu can't dance sala" still holds good for him but he his good at studies and yes, papu pass to ho jayega..he he. He has got a unique characteristic shouting tendency..whenever we are busy studying, and a pin drop silence in the room...he would just take hold of something, a pillow, a hairbrush, or a bottle and throw it towards us with a shrilling sound like something of a horror show..he he. Again he also use the same sound when he poke us with his finger on back, sides belly...anywhere just to irritate us or disturb us..not that he use it always, it only help us to forget the boredom in our room..otherwise he got a normal sense of mind . Other times when not studying or irritating us, he would just talk in phone with his girlfriend.

Second comes Sambit or we call him Sambha, Suna or anything we want. His speciality is dirtyness...just count them...doesn't wash is cloths, keep them for months in his cupboard or say dustbin..eats Pan masala(Safal), spit from our windows making it little dirty..just opposite of Papu, the most cleanest person in our hostel..(use branded creams, powder, face wash...always maintain and wash his cloths, bedsheets).
Where was I?..yes, Sambha..he is just busy chatting with his girlfriend like a child..(I mean talking like a child)..or in his new Nokia touch screen mobile downloading videos, photos or latest software. Anything thats good about him is his clarity of mind about things we study or general knowledge, software, technical fields, physics...sometimes I think he should have been in IIT rather than Medicals...hmm, anyway for all his dirtiness and talking at night(and taking my sleep off..one thing I hate about him) he has got a good brain...good enough for me to understand the subject or different software available...to watch videos.
Now it comes to me..I am the middle of both of them, neither am I dirty nor I got a sense of cleanliness but the time I have in my room..I am just the average of both of my roommates...my house is near our hostel so every Saturday, Sunday I am off to my home.
So, this much is all I have known about my roommates in my 3 yr of hostel life and yes, I do feel lucky to have them..as I know others in our hostel..I could have the worst!!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

what does it shows??

just playing with words...not a poetry though...how was it??


heart thought dream disguise,
kind wish words thought,
want call wait life,
cry sleep journey forever,


chill breeze night cold,
small place stay peace,
search like green solace,
right soft wet dew,


inside smile view wide,
soul insight connect one,
alone but with everyone,
satiety mind too curious,

earth nature world universe,
revolving around moments confused,
time stop me with myself,
moments passed but me so still..................

sleeping dreaming thinking deeper,
deeper I went, trying so hard,
no way I reach, its everywhere,
word here words there...but no word to say,

alive died midway I am,
but its going on and on,
what's this I don't know,
just tell me what does it show??

Sunday, March 7, 2010

fogs everywhere

fogs everywhere...can't see,
but still walking on,
don't know where I am,
or which way I being,
had to think but no time,
or just the momentum,
I am going to shine!!

yes, I doubt as I move,
or its just a dream,
why I am so inconclusive,
if its my own life.
had it been different,
had I been better,
just the clouds above,
so difficult to reach the high!!

moments to stop, moments to see,
to break the shackles, to be free,
then why I am just sleeping,
or just sitting on my knee.
I do hope for better,
its my place, I deserve for,
and still I view the world around,
as my own life being.

I am not detached,
nor I say spiritual words,
but still I am confused,
asking questions to hit the chords.
fog it is but we could clear it,
the perspective we want,
brood and waste our time,
or just live it out, for the same!!