Journey alone ,
just singing some song,
crossing the rivers,
and the mountain spree...
the tree passes by,
shadowing the sunny light,
beneath the mango grooves,
besides the stony hills...
I saw those farms,
cultivated by farmers,
the bullock carts,
and the local haats...
Houses with thatched roof,
brick and stone walls,
big verandas, backside wells,
piles of grass on their sides.
As the cows sitting in groups,
and running calf so cute,
I watch them all,
driving in my bike....
the joy of open space,
cautious in congested place,
driving in these haphazard ways,
quest of some unplanned bays!
be the rains,
as the winds that hampers,
or the summer weather,
that causes the havoc..
be the breaks in the path,
gaps filled with mud and water....
also the risk of nails,
resisting the travel tales!!
Still I will move,
to reach my destination,
alone may be,
a bit bored too....
But work must be done,
as life goes on..
observing, experiencing,
in my solitude.
*Haat --village open markets
Trance,
the way out,
escape from all...
hidden, no more,
eyes closed,
mind wandering,
hallucinations, illusions....
interpretations no more...
no bondage,
responsibility to ask for,
desires, dreams....
delusions no more,
no worries,
works to act on,
restrictions, limitations.....
stopping no more,
walk out,
no running as I stand,
eyes close, relaxed....
alertness no more,
inattentive.. being unsure,
the surrounding that sparkles
blurring , dazzling....
focused no more,
Sensations,
all around me,
feelings, emotions....
hurting no more,
darkness,
the chains around me,
constrains , engagements..
fears no more,
dance to the music,
the sound within me,
gratification, satisfaction....
depressed no more.
I am me,
I am free,
trance it is,
for me..you and us all .
I am tired..
of over expectation,
hope and despair,
of dreams and desires,
reality being so hard.
I am tired,
of being sincere,
be genuine to the cause,
suppress the impulses,
of some attractive thoughts.
I am tired,
of results that doesn't come,
of calculations that goes wrong,
the planning that never works,
in the practical purpose.
I am tired,
of my weaknesses,
fear of loneliness,
of failures and disappointment,
bringing with it....the pain.
I am tired,
of all the distress,
in this pursuit to happiness,
the insecurities of mind,
instabilities in this life game.
I am tired,
yes, I really am.
of all this optimism,
of anger deep within,
the outlet of frustration.
Tired, I may be,
but that won't stop me,
choices being so many,
will fight back to mainstream...
to bring myself back...to the track !!
Hello friends,
I haven't wrote for a while...mostly confining myself in poetry here. But then, it was the only way I saw my blog, to convey emotions, wishes, desires, frustration, hopes, thoughts being philosophical or spiritual..anything that came out in rhythm..
These few days had been a little hectic for me, from the 4 months of oblivion, of laziness and relaxation...the wait of a result and finally posted in a village as a doctor while waiting for the result...the travel of 100 kms, tiring as it is, exhausts one mind to write something creative or imaginative.
Life doesn't behave in the way we want it..but if the hard work is there or true dedication with oneself..any obstruction can be pushed aside to reach one goal.We heard it every time and follow the same in our moment of uncertainty and struggle. As per daily life, we can't find much thrill or changes that we seek, but then, there is always another day...never to lose hope is all I have learned these days. :)
just a few lines in the tradition of my blog....
Never to loose hope,
it's life you see,
new things, new possibility,
old ones seeks something new.
Just move ahead,
continue on your path,
who knows what lays ahead,
opportunities to discover !!
It may be long,
or just by your side,
few troubles,
or some struggling type.
time to decide,
choose your destiny,
or just to enjoy,
the moments on the way,
feet on the road,
tireless, as you go,
no worries, no haste,
learn as long as you last...
looking forward,
you lead the way,
or follow the examples,
to reach the ray.
Just walk on...
