Drenched in the rain,

Drenched in the rain,
driving fast on the road,
cool wind flowing through,
pushing my hair back....
been too fast, 
tears in my eyes,
would I have preferred,
a little slowing down?

So I paced low,
giving me more time,
a moment to appreciate,
enjoy the lively act...
the greenery meadow,
momentary rustling of the leaves,
the swaying branches,
and the aroma of wet earth.

Yes, it's the Monsoon,
came after a long wait,
under the scorching sun,
heat putting pressure on all...
but the welcoming rain,
gave us a refreshing date,
droplets falling down to my lips,
ah..the water's taste is so sweet !!

How I wished to have an open bath,
but what the options do I have,
still the childhood  memory that came again
to jump on puddle, making dirty my cloths...
hot chai and pakodas,
and even others I relished,
also to add the games with friends,
all coming back to these days !!


Just having a day,
I could have waited,
but pleasure not the choice...
I recall the meeting to be attended!!
wet all over, took out the coat,
covered from such lovely onslaught,
revitalized I was, from this pause,
went ahead...for my work!!
.
..
...Still drenched in the rain

No way out..

No way out,
it's just a wait,
to keep going,
to sit idle....

Works won't affect,
nor the simple life,
just the world has it's effects.....
things to crave for,
things to desire !

I don't ask for many,
nor the want of plenty,
being just an average,
part of the crowd....

Big dreams at heart,
impulses that hurts,
just the emotions at times...
lonesome, bored and tired,
bring entangled in responsibilities....

Phases of life,
some lived, some missed out,
to brood, to wish,
little envious from inside....

the time will not return,
decisions to worry for,
just the moments to relish,
trivial, humble or modest,
being closer to what one loves !!

No sympathy needed,
sentiments being affected,
to be cared for,
exchange of some pleasantry....

changes that one awaits for,
refreshing to be least,
just for keeping the balance,
spirited, festive, making merry,
away from inactive lethargic life!!

No way out,
as I see it now,
with hope for tomorrow...
Past, present or future,
whatever it may be,
just a change...it all needs!!

Journey alone

Journey alone ,
just singing some song,
crossing the rivers,
and the mountain spree...

the tree passes by,
shadowing the sunny light,
beneath the mango grooves,
besides  the stony hills...

I saw those farms,
cultivated by farmers,
the bullock carts,
and the local haats...

Houses with  thatched roof,
brick  and stone walls,
big verandas,  backside wells,
piles of grass on their sides.

As the cows sitting in groups,
and running calf so cute,
I watch them all,
driving in my bike....

the joy of open space,
cautious in congested  place,
driving in these haphazard ways,
quest of some unplanned  bays!

be the rains,
as the winds that hampers,
or the summer weather, 
that causes the havoc..

be the breaks in the path,
gaps filled with mud and water....
also the risk of nails,
resisting the travel tales!!

Still I will move,
to reach my destination,
alone may be,
a bit bored too....

But work must be done,

as life goes on..

observing,  experiencing,

in my solitude.

  

 *Haat --village open markets 

Trance

Trance,
the way out,
escape from all...
hidden, no more,

eyes closed,
mind wandering,
hallucinations, illusions....
interpretations no more...

no bondage,
responsibility to ask for,
desires, dreams....
delusions no more,

no worries,
works to act on,
restrictions, limitations.....
stopping no more,

walk out,
no running as I stand,
eyes close, relaxed....
alertness no more,

inattentive.. being unsure,
the surrounding that sparkles
blurring , dazzling....
focused no more,

Sensations,
all around me,
feelings, emotions....
hurting no more,

darkness,
the chains around me,
constrains , engagements..
fears no more,

dance to the music,
the sound within me,
gratification, satisfaction....
depressed no more.

I am me,
I am free,
trance it is,
for me..you and us all .

I am tired

I am tired..
of over expectation,
hope and despair,
of dreams and desires,
reality being so hard.


I am tired,
of being sincere,
be genuine to the cause,
suppress the impulses,
of some attractive thoughts.

I am tired,
of results that doesn't come,
of calculations that goes wrong,
the planning that never works,
in the practical purpose.

I am tired,
of my weaknesses,
fear of loneliness,
of failures and disappointment,
bringing with it....the pain.

I am tired,
of all the distress,
in this pursuit to happiness,
the insecurities of mind,
instabilities in this life game.


I am tired,
yes, I really am.
of all this optimism,
of anger deep within,
the outlet of frustration.

Tired, I may be,
but that won't stop me,
choices being so many,
will fight back to mainstream...
to bring myself back...to the track !! 

Just walk on

Hello friends,

I haven't wrote for a while...mostly confining myself in poetry here. But then, it was the only way  I saw my blog, to convey emotions, wishes, desires, frustration, hopes, thoughts being philosophical or spiritual..anything that came out in rhythm..

These few days had been a little hectic for me, from the 4 months of oblivion, of laziness and relaxation...the wait of a result and finally posted in a village as a doctor while waiting for the result...the travel of 100 kms, tiring as it is, exhausts one mind to write something creative or imaginative. 

Life doesn't behave in the way we want it..but if the hard work is there or true dedication with oneself..any obstruction can be pushed aside to reach one goal.We heard it every time and follow the same in our moment of uncertainty and struggle. As per daily life, we can't find much thrill or changes that we seek, but then, there is always another day...never to lose hope is all I have learned these days. :)

just a few lines in the tradition of my blog....

Never to loose hope,
it's life you see,
new things, new possibility,
old ones seeks something new.

Just move ahead,
continue on your path,
who knows what lays ahead,
opportunities to discover !!


It may be long,
or just by your side,
few troubles,
or some struggling type.

time to decide,
choose your destiny,
or just to enjoy,
the moments on the way,

feet on the road,
tireless, as you go,
no worries, no haste,
learn as long as you last...

looking forward,
you lead the way,
or follow the examples,
to reach the ray.

Just walk on...

Things that I planned.

Things that I planned,
the dreams, the desires,
or just the sustenance,
of a good life.....
some adventure and fun,
or a stability of home...
to step up the ladder,
or strong base at ground.


it may be material security,
works to complete,
new ventures to start,
or celebrating small moments,
with family and friends,
to feel the joy of same.

it could be my profession,
places to visit,
to work in peace,
or getting the leaves,
as much I please,
still strike a balance in both.

it could be an opportunity,
competition faced from many,
to succeed or left behind,
not being broken down, 
not discouraged in adversary,
keep on fighting till the end. 

Things that I planned,
may not have worked out,
new things that being born,
after being fallen from old one...
some hopes, expectations,
or coping with things on hand,
an optimism, believe in oneself,
and stand up to face them all.

my boat and me

Standing on the edge,
I watched the water,
still, sparkling in the sunlight,
a boat it is,
sailing with the wind,
slow and steady, as it goes....

I had made my way,
faced lot of turbulence,
difficulties to be least,
but there were good times,
things being plenty,
time for merry..

I had company,
different boats big or small,
each one on it's own,
meet for a while,
spend some moments as friends,
then off to their destination.

So, it's a long journey, 
and lot of things to do,
situations to be faced,
beginning had been good,
focused on the second part,
and here I am standing, on my route...

It's been a while,
and I haven't noticed,
everything being silent, motionless..
temporary setbacks it seems,
but everything stopped for me,
boat being on standstill,

No direction, no wind,
as I searched for a hint,
felt so lonely in the sea.....
I searched for someone,
a companion for my journey,
to face these dull times!!

My boat is perfect,
so are the sails,
still there are things I missed,
difficult times that enforced,
worries and the craving,
Hope for a way out !!

In the faith I found strength,
my courage to take me away,
someone will come, take my sides,
I will move again, 
just a opportunity is all I need,
to reach my destination.

My boat and me,
a long way to go,
apprehensions, anxiety will come,
but optimism is with me,
the journey is all I have,
new things to discover, to know :) :)

Happy Holi,

The Holi season is here, the festival of colors and countless emotions, the fun, the masti, the joy of Holi....
We all love Holi, because it also become the festival of Love. A time of Family gathering, Lover's freedom, children play, elders too joining the game....So, here's a small tribute to such a grand festival,

Happy Holi,
the festival of colors,
playground of the kids,
filled with echos of laughs,
balloons and buckets,
powders and water,
carefree at heart,
be it strangers or loved one....
feeling the joy, the pleasure!

A time of meeting,
friends old or new,
sprouts of teenage love,
or juts the mischievous us,
requests or force,
color is a must,
to party and dance!

Greetings being exchanged,
sweets are distributed,
token of colors on the face,
or putting them on other's head,
some avoid, hide...not for long,
at last, accepting with a smile,
and then joining in this game!!

Elders were satisfied,
to see their children,
blessings were given,
in a time of  gathering,
feast and fun at a single place...
what more one asks from a single day??

Festivals are for us,
as a one society,
to be with family,
and being with friends,
to celebrate this time,
and these moments filled with a colorful life!!

Too cold

Too cold here,
shivering in my body,
is this the winds,
harsh and strong, 
forcing upon me,
pushing me back,

the thoughts inside,
tears in my eyes,
drops that comes out,
bringing out the memories,
the melancholy, the pain,
thorns that pierces the heart.

I sat down,
pulling the cloths close,
gazing the earth,
covered with mud,
small drops falling,
spluttering ,pounding on my head.

Nothing comes out,
nor being inside,
everything blank, 
just the emotions, the feel...
moments passed, 
but everything stopped, silent.

Your laugh echoing around me,
and the smile, comes before my eyes,
sweet curve of lips, that come and go,
words that flowed from your mouth,
as a song, soothing, smooth,
missing it all...where are you!!


Small things, times we had,
and now it's all alone,
just the memory, the pain,
something missing, 
the joy of my life....
its sharp, the voices outside,
forcing me down, deep.....

I don't sleep, nor being awake,
its too cold in my heart,
restless, impatient, I can't wait,
but there is not much to say,
the waving of branches,
showing your silhouette,

but then you speak,
in my half dream,
small warmth I gather,
with the thought of it,
As you call me,
bringing your hand to reach me,
the fingers I want to touch it,
to embrace you and  hold tight....

It had sweetness, it had pain,
living it up all the same,
you were near in my sight...
I thought these moments will last forever,
just to wake up,
to see the sunlight....
it's a dream all right :D

Just a day

Just a day, it went on,
the same routine, being on own....
I wait for something new,
to have some fun,
or just a normal routine,
of things that I haven't done!!

It may be mere bird watching ,
to see the nature world,
or to red some book,
experiencing some new thoughts.

It could be a gentle touch,

to walk with one I love,

or to join some friends,

and have an adrenaline rush.

new things, new possibilities,

to explore the crazy part,

try things that are forbidden,

or our inhibition causing the halt.

entertain oneself,

or support the needy,

be selfish to one's greed,

or sacrifice for many...

confusing or mixed are the emotions,

may be the free mind works,

the good or evil I don't know,

still an outlet, be it so !!

Just a day, as it passed,

comes the night, for my sleep,

resting my impatient mind, 

to make way for dreams,

and wake up another day,

exercising my brain for some new way..........again :)
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..
...
have a nice day.

to realize my goal

Silent I am, clueless, confused, 
drifting with the wind,
flowing with the water,
I haven't stopped,
not backed down,
just waiting for something....
the light, the hope !!

I doubted, pondered,
worries that engulfed me,
too difficult to walk,
being resisted, pushed back,
stumbled, faltered, in my gait,
opportunities to few, 
destination too far,
that I dreamed of !!

apprehension were there,
diverted to different ways,
fear of future, 
uncertainty of present,
and the past that drags on,
I fought to get over,
come up to my triumph........

still, I have faith,
the struggle will end,
my hard work will pay,
the stress is evident,
thoughts being so blurry,
patience in the mind,
relaxing, focused, I wait,
to realize my goal !!

living the life..

Each aspect of our life is essential,

be it acquiring knowledge, experience , 

or having fun and time out with friends...

to be alone with self.

or sharing a laugh with others...

adventure and thrill at one place or fear of something else,

friends, family, society each should have it's place....

but do we get it all, 

or give a lot of our time on few parts of our life??

                                                                        

                                                                        ----  Mind thinks    :)