Sunday, September 2, 2018

Life choices




Its so dull and boring, there is nothing here,
the conservative elderly, and dirty bumpkins..
they laugh like no worries, blind of world ways,
follow the menial works, slothful or loiter  around
I want to be big!

irritating are their actions, careless are their ways,
their time being in standstill, just waiting to wither away..
I want to escape, a place more alive,
full of lights and glitters, to get at the center stage,
I want to be big!

Opportunity did came, I grabbed and went,
moved to the city, took place on rent,
struggled hard and slowly moved up,  
loosing my sleep, tireless I worked. 
I want to be big!

As head of my workplace, with parties and celebrations,
I achieved my dream, life being full of happiness,
I don't miss village, even asked family to come,
but they reject the proposal, and I don't care....
I got to be big!


I grew up in city, parents were the elite,
my goals were fixed, results to be shown,
had fun during school times, with friends and family, 
with good grades, skills, I climbed up in businesses.
something is missing!

 dry and monotonous routine, as I go to work,
noises and pollution, and chaotic populace,
everyday full of stress, everything time bound, 
feeling guilty to take leaves and nothing to do in it.
something is missing!

I want to escape, get away from here,
to get some space, inhale fresh air,
finally I decided, moved out of city,
buy a land from villager, settled in farmland.
something was missing!

Now I find peace, see every sunrise,
feel the breeze, drink cool water,
listen to the chirruping, rustling of the leaves,
as I sit on my veranda, reading some books.
a sense of fulfillment!

A village festival, I came from city..
a visit of nostalgia, clearing of legal matters..
parents dead, family left, and a new owner,
ancestral home sold and I met the new occupant.

It was a pleasant meeting, we exchanged greetings,
visited the festival, while we chatted,
turned out he was my senior, the one moved to village,
we asked each other the reason, answered in unison......

I had always wanted this...it was my life choice!!

Monday, August 27, 2018

Cell at work

Hello friends,

Just for a heads up...My same routine life continuing, job and home. Watching anime series too in my free time. 
I have been seeing a new continuing series titled 'Cell at work' recently which humorously, and pleasantly  showing some of the inner workings of our immune system and other body cells, some illnesses and their effects. So, as a Clinical Microbiologist..I am happy that its making my line of study, some of which involves infection and immunity, a little interesting to the masses. 
 The episodes involving the incidences were not fairly accurate and might miss certain details, still it does gives lots of information and makes me even happy to be following it as a means of entertainment.

 So a simple writing for it;




 Cell at work,
as a sophisticated society,
like us in real world,
with our responsibilities!

On a microscopic level,
every one have their duties,
along with proper scrutinies,
and punishing the guilty.

The dangers also lurk,
in the dark alleys,
even the alien invaders,
or the berserk insiders...

Every one works,
with lot of sacrifices,
to keep it functioning..
the world called..... our own body!!

Wednesday, August 22, 2018

Outdoorish me..




Sitting on the chair,
working on my computer,
small letters, noisy machines,
make my mind to wander..
to have a little daydream.

Outside the glass window screen.
the golden sunlight pouring in,
as I lifted my eyes,
bringing my gaze...
only tall apartments to be seen!

So being struck inside,
a bit of melancholy,
and have a heart craving,
for bounties of nature,
of mountains and sea.

From the lush of greenery
lying on the bed of flowers,
smelling the fragrance,
being touched with blades of grass..
and a welcoming morning dew.

Or be it some adventure,

hill climbing and scrambling,
thrill of the height, 
and the view of the valley.. 
with breath of fresh and chilly winds!! 

A visit to seashore,
playing with the sand,
or facing giant waves..
exploring the calmness and vastness,
while relaxing on the yacht.

Be it the lakes or Riverside,
a bit of boating and fishing,
along with the camping,
eating with the barbecue,
or even on a campfire.

With friends, a common goal,
just to enjoy the moments,
any sites, any places,
but it had to be outside...
playing, relaxing, enjoying..
 
Is the Outdoorish me!!

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.....
.......
.........
Alas..it was a mere Daydream.





Wednesday, August 15, 2018

Freedom to live (part-2)

On a fateful day,
on my daily scramble,
I had my encounter,
cheerful younglings of your kind, 
playing with our kindred,
on the other side of hedge.

Hidden in bushes,
to my surprise,
they flourished, 
so were some others,
but only a chosen few,
inside that alluring cage.

Temptation it was,
but I could see,
you too had conflicts,
clash of ego!
breaking things, damaging places,
destroying the little left for myself.


You had everything,
a big dwelling,
larger space,
cleaner air, pure water,
place to lie...away from dangers,
at your own backyards.

Wilds on lease,
life of tame ones...at your whims!
wearing their skins, woolen coverings,
taking their milks and fledglings,
poking, messing, tormenting, 
forcing them to submit!

Is it my frustration or envy?
while I breath the polluted air,
drank the dirty water,
foul and soiled food,
and your kinds having...
fresh and clean provisions!

Still you want more,
grabbing my territory,
apathetic to my plight,
you keep demolishing builds, 
crushing my household,
my shelter..place to sleep.

I protested, 
growled and snarled,
even bite your flesh,
but it was of no avail.
for you were secure,
behind that hard shield.

Your strike was fast,
brought the fatal wound....
Now, my voice leaving me,
Still, I had silent screams,
my last desperate attempts,
for....Freedom to live.



Freedom to live (part-1)

Ah...such a beautiful sight,
everything so bright,
fragrance of greenery,
scent of my brethren,
to play and feed,
every day and night. 

But safety being concern,
under the elder's lead,
we survived and thrived,
even in our struggles,
licking our wounds,
in different seasons.

Over the tight rope,
balancing we walked,
hoping that peace will last.
Then breaking the harmony, 
driven by greed and pleasure,
suddenly you all came...to our life.

Chased, hunted, captured,
as you slowly enclosed,
even the bests among us,
only be sacrificed or martyred....
still you lots stood laughing
while we surrendered to our fate.

I was lucky to escape,
hide and await,
as you leave to your life.
My home is gone,
so are my brethren..
and I stared at changing landscape.
   
For provision, for shelter,
to sustain, to preserve,
compete for limited resource...
I sneaked to your world,
wasted foods, and things,
I stole, brought for self,
all while keeping the faith,
to avoid you.. harbinger of death. 

Wednesday, August 8, 2018

Its raining...




Its raining...
slow and continuous,
mild drizzle or pouring,
chilly and biting,
to flesh and bones.

dark clouds soaring above,
scant populace on streets,
small streams flow on path,
taking the impurities with it....
and submerging my feet.

A bit of melancholy it is?
or a moment of nostalgia,
affecting my sensibilities,
giving off those vibes,
bringing out my mood swings!!

Its raining,
with its breeze,
spreading the petrichor ....
and immersed in its flavor,
are my heart and soul.





Friday, August 3, 2018

Pleasure



 What governs the world..
if not the Pleasure?

Of money or fame,
of life or death,
of lust or love,
for others or self !!

Pleasure I seek,
desires that have been,
to bring out the most,
from my daily routine.

as a craving,
it calls me out,
or as a power,
controls my decisions.

Greed of worldly things,
the pride of achievements,
be it lust, I may not speak,
or the plain envy did I feel?

Gluttony...the one I have ignored,
but my wrath only got soured,
tired and lazy I became a sloth,
Deadly sins...for all its worth.

Pleasure a sin or is it so?
for it moves the life cycle,
and thus being aware...
I accept it all  !!

But society warns,
it has its implications,
but not be in excess,
my satiety is from a little.

I would still strive,
struggle with all my might,
for the joy and happiness....
for my own pleasure.

 

 

Thursday, July 26, 2018

Impulsivity





Impulsivity..
a bit of spontaneity,
an act of emotion,
seeking of freedom.


Dry and monotonous,
my life on stasis,
everyday is same,
an unease in calmness....
a little spark of excitement,
or some thrills or adventure,
that we read in stories,
exposures of the characters.

Its a rarity..
to see something new,
or its my indecisiveness,
letting these worries grew.
I have a lot, 
yet asks for more..
to feel more alive,
life points, I want to score.

Not to be hasty,
a planning is needed,
but does it brings the charms,
of something sudden or unexpected?
a little change in perspective,
may be all I need,
a little push to my back,
or a companion for courage.

Sometimes I do wonder,
what if, I break these chains,
winding my mental restrains,
to break out, to be free,
of fears of uncertainties,
but it feels insane!

Impulsivity it is,
that appeals my heart,
instinctive, passionate,
to pursue the real joy,
being passionate or emotional,
not calculative of actions,
and then may be...
find my true happiness!!

Sunday, July 22, 2018

The sand of time.




The sand of time,
that slowly moves,
but definitely moves,
forward and ahead....
even if we realize or not.

The memories of the past,
that come and go..
be it good or bad,
like waves of the sea,
invoking emotions in our heart.

but there are routines,
be it social responsibility,
or our daily activities,
driven by own desires,
making us lost in the moment.

Still, the time will move, 
as the clock is ticking,
the gears are moving,
and when it gets our attention..
we are only helpless spectator.

we have our regrets,
the dread of coming fate,
the days wasted,
and things we could have done,
if given more time.

So came the thoughts,
as I watched the hourglass,
sitting on my table,
with its glass bulbs,
supported by wooden pillars.


being present...it denotes time,
the glass bulb of infinity,
and the slow trickling,
of the sand within...
displaying the magnanimous symbolism. 

A lifetime includes,
past, present and future...
but its an instant in time,
a moment in an eternity....
in this sand of time. 

Friday, July 13, 2018

Dreamy day



I am dreamy,
a little warm and fuzzy,
just sitting on the porch,
looking at the clear sky.

The breeze so cool,
caressing my hair,
and the falling leaves...
giving little peck on the cheek.

The air smells something nice,
a bit of nostalgia,
the feeling of floating,
a complete relaxation !!


As a complete submission,
to the nature and the life,
no worries or worldly thoughts,
in my clear mind.

emptiness can be scary,
and loneliness be painful,
but today its welcoming,
like a mother to the baby.

These days of uneventful,
no responsibilities or activities,
just a temporary pause..  
and then will come routine lifestyle.

but now I don't mind,
I can be carefree...
and appreciate the beauties,
charm of the small things...surrounding me.

Thus I wondered,
with a pleasant surprise,
sitting on the porch.....
on such a dreamy day.

Sunday, June 24, 2018

Dark emotions





Hello friends, just trying to write a little darker emotions, hope I get it right. Here it goes;






Its so dark,
no light at the sight,
wandering clueless, panicked,
is there a path...
or am I simply lost,
in this infinite loop?

The strength failing,
tired of all the run,
some moments of respite,
a pause, a distraction,
flaring me a little,
and then comes..deep cold sensation.

a forced smile,
disappointed heart,

an undirected anger,
 a hopeless struggle,
false sense of security,
pride of being stubborn.

slowly the time passes,
chipping away little by little,
as the scars got old,
fresh cuts keep coming up,
hiding, treating, showing off....
unsure, clueless and given up!

Still....I stand,
on my uneasy path..
looking for the flowers,
ignoring the  thorn,

by surrendering to my fate,
hoping to reach life goals.

but then, it comes back..
like the waves of sea,
all the negativity and darkness,
immersing my heart,
taking away the light,
mocking, laughing at my stage.

No.....I won't back down,
I won't fall,
will hold my ideals,
till my last breath...
still I am scared,
might call for help.



So....if you are there,
exist for real,
like an illusion of my heart.
Then come....hold me up,
catch me as I fall,
for I might not last long.

listen to my conscious and subconscious self,
all those smothered screams,
accept, appreciate and encourage me,
be there when I need..
with all my fallacy, all my sins,
am I allowed to be selfish??

Then again...should I be?
expectations hurt,
dream get broken,
being laughed and made fun of,
am I embarrassed or fear of rejection,
to get passionately involved....only to let it go??

Monday, June 18, 2018

Dehradun diaries

A journey was planned,
to meet a faraway family,
time to spend,
moments to share...

So started a trip,
from an airway strip,
and we fly,
over the clouds,
above the sky.

finally we reached,
touched the ground,
walked a little,
drove in a car....

and thus we met,
with hugs and kiss,
the travel was hard,
but nothing was amiss!

Many things to talk,
laugh and play,
to plan an outing,
to move back in time.

so, we went,
the very next day,
to our old abode,
small colony...a couple of  decade back.


Then we visited,
to pray and reminisce,
an old Buddhist temple,
flocked with Tibetan monks.

A grand place it was,
with big statues,
a magnificent temple,
Buddha in deep meditation.

It was hot summer,
our naked feet too prone,
and thus we decided,
to go to the next place.

A land of thousand streams,
a nice way to refresh,
to bath and play,
a place named Sahatsradhara.

It was as we remembered,
the same charm,
to bring us a great joy,
too bad that we couldn't stay.

Our next stoppage,
a place called Robbers cave,
with deep creek and open roof,
a cold stream of water below our feet.

It was all rocks and stones,
some big and some small,
surrounding us above and below,
intimidating and exhilarating too.

smooth stones press our feet,
as cold water dampens it,
it make us wet, moisten skin,
while the cool breeze brush our cheek.

everything was as we remembered,
but more crowded and chaotic,
losing nature, development creeping,
still some moments it does make.

we were tired and hot,
had our lunch,
a little shopping in clock towers,
and reached and fall on our bed,
too much for a single day.

we slept like a log,
with anticipation of next day,
as it was for queen of mountain,
a place named Masoorie.




Surrounded by mountains,
with lush greenness,
Tall trees, deep valley,
lot of diverse flora and fauna.

a great market,
beautiful sceneries for viewpoint,
wild fruits and hilly foods,
and a walk with family.

A lot of pictures to take,
get overwhelmed by the place,
also the serpentine road,
making us light-headed.

there were a place,
with lots of flower,
to relieve from tiredness,
so called the Company garden.

we had our break,
then the same hectic routine,
the twists and turns,
as we descend the mountain.

we saw a lake,
some exotic birds,
common monkeys,
on the mountain trail.

thus completed our second day,
tired but happy,
thanking our driver,
we entered our home.




The next day was main,
a little spiritual at heart,
to visit temples in Haridwar,
and take a holy bath.

But I was  distracted,
excited about river rafting,
as a little adventure awaits,
at a place called Rishikesh.

Tomorrow came,
the day was early,
Half awake, we got ready,
to visit Haridwar and Rishikesh.

First we went Rishikesh,
the place of adventure,
I went rafting,
while parents went sightseeing.

Rafting in river Ganga,
we planned our way,
after getting ready,
with jackets, cap and row.

The touch of the water,

it was cold and clean,
with fog covers the surrounding,
and we mounted the boat.

By invoking mother Ganga,
we started our journey,
faced bravely...turbulent waves,
also floated in calm water.

it was fun, and exciting,
filled my heart with joy,
we laughed and swam,
etching everything in memory.

in between at break point,
we had our tea and snacks,
we clicked pictures,
and talked with strangers.

so continued our rafting,
finally reached our goal,
tired and exhausted,
we returned to out vehicle.

with lunch convered,
and fully restored...
for our main destination,
drove towards Haridwar.

And ancient place,
besides bank of Ganga,
with many ghats,
flocked by young and old,

A place of reverence,
with saints and Sadhus,
people from many walk of life,
and different locations.

After the holy dip,
we went for temple visit,
residing on top of hill,
Ma Mansa and Chandi Devi.

We took the ropeway,
for we had less time,
but to wait for turn,
humidity and long queue took the toll.

still we faced the crowd,
the like-minded ones,
to pray in unison,
and have our darshan.

the ropeway was fun,
saw peacock enroute,
the trees laden with fruits,
also the deep fall below.

with all the darshan,
and doing Ganga Aarti,
a spark of spirituality,
contemplating about the religion.

Happy faces of parent,
me with silent observations,
the plethora of people,
moving around in harmony.....
within the noise and chaos!

we followed them,
walked with them,
after living those moments,
we finally returned.

In silence we drove,
with noise of bells,
chanting of verses...
playing fresh in our mind.

As we entered home,
talked about the experience,
had our dinner,
went in a deep slumber.




Next day was for rest,
need to restore our strength,
Just have a lazy day,
and prepare for early flight next day.

So it went,
my Dehradun diary,
a trip of nostalgia,
plenty of adventure,
and beautiful memories😊😊













Sunday, June 10, 2018

Passing by..

Passing by,
we see others,
just a glance,
or a smile,
as we walk to our cause.

A moment of connection,
or our clumsy whims or fancy,
wondering their presence,
their life or work,
or just a simply form of attraction.

Passing by,
not much to spare,
Being busy with self,
in the life of fast pace,
returning to old life.

But then something changes,
or just some impulses,
giving some serious thoughts,
simple look or stares,
or little courage to meet...

So...brings the attachment,
forming of relations,
moving to more, solidifying,
Some words, assurances...
forming like a bond.

Passing by,
All it took...
a moment of pause,
first step to unknown...
and life goes on.😊