Just me...as it is

Hello friends....It's been a while, that I have written some blogs here. Had my entrance exam going on and preparation was taking it's toll...and these competitive environment just take away the pleasure of writing for expression of my thought...to expand my imagination in writing space !! 

Still....just a new one , a bit of feeling coming out....here it goes,


I tried to be happy and lively,
to be sad and gloomy too..
be with friends and share,
or just be reserved within.

to look around and observe,
see what the world had got,
watch as I move forward,
feeling the life as I go.

to be unsure,
dream for my future..
or looking towards my past,
for some memory to solace.

Did I brood too much ?
or wish the unreachable,
to avoid the responsibilities,
and be living in my dream world !!

Being influenced by stories,
or make some in my imagination,
a delusion to begin with...
disappointment as a wholesome.

I haven't asked much,
but refused to stand back,
to try as much I do,
and seek for what I desire.

Yes...confused I am,
so are my aspirations,
dreams to be fulfilled,
life to care for......

are these detachments,
or envious of not having,
bit of philosophy and spirituality too.. 
all being a part of me.

I don't know where I belong,
I don't want much to it either,
just some peace and happiness,
friends and family to be with...
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or just me as it is !!